It happened so fast.   I got up from my desk to go to the kitchen,   and had Alana in my left arm.   This is unusual, since I don’t hold her much.   Normally my attitude is if she is clean and warm and fed, the rest is up to her.   But here I was trying to be a good dad and calm her when she was upset.   The irony…

Something spilled on our smooth horribly-chosen kitchen tiles, and my legs slipped out…fast.   Crashing many times has made me discover nascent cat-in-the-air skills, and turn them into finely tuned cat-like reflexes, or at least try to save my shit in the instants during a crash instead of just wasting the time staring in befuddlement. Off-center by 10 lbs of Meatpod and turning left hard had me going down on top of her.   I braced my arm to take the fall and keep her skull from cracking the floor, and counterweighted everything else.   My forearm, elbow, hip, butt, quad and knee all kinda hurt, but none too bad – quite well played actually if I got that much square footage involved. I saw my arm with Alana in it hit the floor first, then my chest start to come down almost on her leg.

I had time to realize the following during the next 5 seconds:

• i did not break my arm
• Alana did not smash her head
• how little weight does it take to tear a baby’s ACL?
• her face is not normally that scrunchy and red

Her face just got redder and redder and smaller and smaller until finally it EXPLODED!!!!!! I got a little scared about the head and the acl, but after about 2 howls she quieted right down.

I’m a little like well that wasn’t such a chores, then I had bad flashbacks to dropping G on her head in Home Depot.   But other than the shock of disorientation, she seemed just fine.

So for the last few days I’ve been overthinking this whole thing trying to figure out what went wrong, how I’ve only fallen in our kitchen twice in like 9 years, and once was during New Years Eve when I was sloppy drunk.   Alana is not as fragile as she seems.   G should not have juice-boxes without lids.   I should wear shoes.   I should be more careful. Blah blah blah.

Take nothing for granted.

especially when they finally start to get interesting